If U.G. Were Alive

If
U.G. were alive,
I
could
give
myself
away
again
until
I
could
never
come
back.

Couldn't
he
have
done
something
to
shatter
that
last
bit
of
me
being
me
did
you
want
me
to
stay
being
Larry
until
my
end
too?
Or,
did
you
do
something
ultimate,
something
inside
of
me
that
has
yet
to
be
revealed,
something
so
staggering
that
when
it
hits
I
won't
even
know
it
happened.

Maybe
it
happened
already
and
I'm
in
recovery
and
don't
even
know
it.

Your
last
words
to
me:
"You
don't
have
to do
a
thing.
Just let
things
happen
in their own way."
But
then
you
added:
"but
you
can't do that."

How
can
I
not
do
something
anything
to help
it
along
a
little?
U.G.
from
beyond
the
grave,
save
me.